DARN!!~I just wrote a great post about soul searching and DRATS! if it didn't dissapear. Well...I'm not re-writing it. But the gist of it is: ankle surgery = relaxed schedule=unschooling=peace=new way of life=fear=courage=help=Nurtured by Love blog and Trust the children blog=here we go!
Well...my family has homeschooled off and on for the past 8 years. I've always been a structured homeschooler...using a complete curriculum package and it's always been great. Since bringing the three kids back home this past winter...the same old same old isn't working. It's not working easily for me and not effective for a couple of my children. So...for the first time in my adventures of homeschooling I'm doing some serious re-evaluating. What do I keep? What do I throw out? How much trust do I give to my childrens ability to learn? How much do I trust myself without everything being planned out for me? I think that if I can let go we will thrive! I pray I can let go!
Since I have so much down time on my hands, I reread Stephenie Meyer's 'Twilight' series over the past three days. One day for each book. It's my 4th time reading Twilight. My second time reading New Moon and Eclipse. I love, love, love these books. I love the way Edward and Bella have rescued each other and because of that they have become completely different beings. I love the willingness that Edward puts forth to listen to and understand Bella. In fact, he must know what she is thinking or he is driven crazy. I love the fact that Bella is able to have immense amounts of love for her parents even though they haven't parented her. She is willing to give her life to save theirs. Shows amazing amounts of forgiveness and understanding. I love that Edward challenges Bella often. I love Jacob. "Edward is a drug! You can't live without him. But I am your air and sun...choose me!" That was the line that stuck with me today as I was finishing up Eclipse. I choose the Jacob in my life to marry. I'm so, so excited for the fourth book to come out. I can't wait for the movie and I've been spending time looking at sites dedicated to Twilight. It's actually really fun . I guess I'm taking advantage of my down time and roaming on the computer in ways I won't be able to when I'm back on my feet.
So I'm sitting here on the computer trying to edit my blog to make it look more interesting. I'm actually sitting in my recliner with my foot up-feeling very unproductive and maybe a little sorry for myself. I look out and see the Big Van pull up. I call it the Big Van because the family that drives it has 7 children under the age of 10. The mom, Laura is a fabulous chef, decorator, organizer, mother and the list goes on and on. Such admirable qualities that I strive to possess. Well.... in walks Laura (mom) who says "I've brought you lunch!" She proceeds to find a bowl for me, and pulls out of a large brown bag-tied with a ribbon no less- the base of taco soup and then opens up a box. From this box she adds chicken, black beans, corn, green onions, cheese, tortilla strips and says "Enjoy! "
Now that is a moment of pure kindness, service and love! I truly feel as if Heaven is watching over me and I feel very, very blessed right now and not so sorry for myself anymore. Yesterday I actually was thinking how helpful it would be to have someone bring me lunch. I'm so grateful that Laura is sensitive to the spirit and listens and follows through. I feel very, very loved. Besides Laura is one of the best cooks I know and taco soup from her is better than any restaurant anywhere!
I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the whole wide world!!! The power of Taco Soup!
I am a mom of 5 who loves to homeschool, compose, teach, cook and play. I hate to do dishes but I love to vacuum floors. I'm married to a great guy who adores me and our children. I could have never imagined the chaos, joy, pleasure and love a family like this would bring. I feel blessed to live such a very full life.