Trauma!

I have HUGE dental phobias! I have had the worst luck with dentists, procedures...everything associated with the evil career. The thought of having to see a dentist makes me want to throw up. I start panicking, shaking and just want to die! Are you getting the point yet that I am terrified of all things dental?
Well, tomorrow I have to have not just a procedure but surgery. I guess I have a hole in my jaw bone that is getting larger and it is infected. It's been bothering me for a very long time but I have that phobia thing going...
I'm actually good friends with an endodontist and over the past couple of months he's been trying to get me to go see a colleague of his...I haven't done that. I genuinely can't! Huge trust thing I guess...so my friend scheduled surgery for me and is doing the procedure tomorrow himself.
Since he scheduled this I've had non-stop nightmares. I'm not kidding. I wake up trying to run away as fast as I can. I'm tired and stiff and sweating. If I think about it, I begin to cry.

I've lived in Israel during a time of conflict! I didn't cry due to fear! I've delivered 5 babies naturally-never cried due to fear. Tell me I have to have a procedure done at the dentist, I cry like a baby!
Okay, I will admit, it is a big deal oral surgery. I will be awake for it...and I'm sure crying like a baby!
Tomorrows going to be a bad, bad day!